in limbo

i never thought my 2 bestest classmates/friends would ever think i'd be lying to them and hiding from them just so i could not do my share in our group projects. never. i got hurt. i got hurt that they would think that. i got hurt that they would get disappointed in me for me *simply* not making paramdam, when i am in fact, working my butt off on our projects.

ouch.

and to think i was compared to another batchmate who was full of reasons. well, i have my own. but hell, they're nothing like his. we love the guy, don't get me wrong.

it wasn't even deadline (not that i'll be cramming). i thought each of us were assigned our own topics so we can work on our own. what the hell did i miss? sarili kong diskarte. it's not like i'm just gonna pay some other guy to do the dirty work. siyempre aaralin ko rin. it's good knowledge. and now that i never found anybody, i'm doing the work myself. i would have appreciated the pep talk more if i never delivered.

i know they mean well. but i just don't get it. honestly.

p.s.

teka, pahabol lang...

NEL IS SUPER GAY!

and ezekiel might be unstraight. hehe! o siya, "shine na!"

hell weeks

sick.

glad i spent the day with doc tak and doc corrie. i badly needed the break. one hell week down, 2 or 3 more to go. went to san agustin to check on their house. weird. nakapalitada na ang exterior ng first floor. something fishy's going on. will observe once i graduate.

proceeded to lung center's sunday market. saw carlo maceda with some unknown peeps. he's not as hunky as before. anyway, good thing the doctors caught up with the caterers there. they got a good deal for the XL roasted calf on july. friendly folks. even gave us ulams. well, it's easy to be generous when you're 16K richer. haha! nagdown payment kasi sila for the reception.

then went to dangwa to canvass for some flowers for the wedding. got lots of good ideas for the events organizing company i'm planning to put up. however, there really comes a time when you're --

(wait, just watched aussie hottie ezekiel go into kuya's house. haha!)

-- okay. where was i? oh yeah. there really comes a time when you just can't stand any longer planning for a wedding. you have to take a breather. an hour or so talking and planning a wedding gets to one's nerves, except of course when you're really pysched. and so once again, ladies and gentlemen, i don't see any point of this blabbering. haha. shit.

before heading home, we went to a 7-11 store and bought ourselves delicious slurpee. sarap. here's me and the doctors on the background.

worked on their videoke souvenirs in the afternoon, sang at church and now i'm just resting.

unfinished finals in staad.

on a cab for a 7am test in matrix analysis of structures (theory 3).

busy dying

really busy dying here. in a month, i will be dead or i will have graduated already. please pray for me and my batchmates. lots of projects (read: design and construction of massive structures like buildings, etc from start to finish) to do and lessons to study.

the senior's field trip was terrific! imagine, i waited 7 years for that. although i wanted to go further north like ilocos norte and sur, the la-union - baguio trip was okay. my girlfriends made all the difference. we got a cool jacket which says, UST Civil Engineering: centennial batch.

loving regina spektor more and more. she is my new muse. somebody told me about her last year. i downloaded her songs. they're really great! a genius!

okay. so ate roda saw my blog. i'm just not sure whether she saw this one or my old one...or both. ngak. well.

apparently, nakapambola na naman ako. hehe! i went to manila water for an interview with the senior HR officer. she let me sing! gulay! she just checked if i was game. i appreciate her for appreciating my singing. haha! she liked me so much (okay, no holds barred na sa pagbubuhat ng bangko), she processed me on the same day; gave me a series of tests (some i dint finish) and set up a panel for me for the second interview. the panel said i was obviously an achiever (haha! akala lang nila) and they made me do an on-the-spot presentation, which, mind you, i handled really well.

anyway, i just thought of updating this blog before i forget anything really important. :)

PRAY FOR ME!