small steps

it does not matter how slow you go so long as you do not stop.

i see that posted below my friend's name as his status message everytime i face the computer. i guess i never really took time to ponder on it. it seemed like nothing to me really. but this morning, it's different.

classes started a week ago and i had my mindset to treat every class as training at the office.

this is easy. this is just like any other day at the office.

so far, so good. lessons are absorbed easily and i have plans of retaining them for good in my mind.

all i need is a degree under my belt and i can do anything i want. this is easy. hang on.

and so i go back to albie's phrase mentioned. i have regrets for taking so long a time finishing my course. but not major ones. just simple sighs that i can let pass. the fact that i could have finished school this year will never make up for all the experiences that i have gained in the past years.

small steps, man. small steps.

oh, and by the way, when shit happens, you stop smelling.

Never Gonna Let You Go

Just heard this again this morning. Ang ganda pang-duet.

Never Gonna Let You Go – Sergio Mendes

i was as wrong as i could be
to let you get away from me
i'll regret that move
for as long as i'm living
but now that i've come to see the light
all i wanna do is make things right
so just say the word and tell me that i'm forgiven

you and me
we're gonna be better than we were before
i loved you then but now i intend
to open up and love you even more
this time you can be sure

i'm never gonna let you go
i'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
gonna try and make up for the times
i hurt you so
gonna hold your body close to mine
from this day on we're gonna be together
oh, i swear this time
i'm never gonna let you go

looking back now it seems so clear
i had it all when you were here
oh, you gave it all and i took it for granted
but if there's some feeling left in you
some flicker of love that still shines through
let's talk it out
let's talk about second chances

wait and see
it's gonna be sweeter than it was before
i gave some then but now i intend
to dedicate myself to giving more
this time you can be sure

i'm never gonna let you go
i'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
gonna try and make up for all the times
i hurt you so
gonna hold your body close to mine
from this day on we're gonna be together
oh, i swear this time
i'm never gonna let you go

ooooooh-oh-oh-oooh
so if you'll just say you want me too
i'm never gonna let you go
i'm gonna hold you in my arms forever
gonna try and make up for all the times
i hurt you so
gonna hold your body close to mine
from this day on we're gonna be together
oh, i swear this time
i'm never gonna let you go

never gonna let you go
hold you in my arms forever
gonna try and make up for all the times
i hurt you so
hold your body close to mine
from this day on we're gonna be together
oh, i swear this time
i'm never gonna let you go

orbs?

Look what I caught.
This is something my camera-phone got at the hospital's lobby.
So creepy! Pang-Ghost Busters.Orbs!
Ghosts lurking at the lobby???
Let's take a closer look.

Parang spaceship. So phallic. Hehe!

Nah. Just pulling your leg.
This is the hospital's lighting at the lobby for the christmas season.
Mark Madolaria could have done better :)

my reward

I've always loved Basia. Now that Jay Durias has come up with a revival of one of her songs, I'm loving her all over again.

Reward Lyrics
Artist: Basia

Father I didn't really know you
Mother you are so very far away from me
Hopeless birthdays made me cry
My heart kept saying: It's all right
Obviously that's how it was meant to be

Now I know
There was a reason for it all
And I am not lonely anymore
I got my reward
That's why I am loved

I have you
A lover and a friend
You are everything I need
You are the sun the air I breathe
Without you, life wouldn't be the same
Please never go away
And if you go then don't forget to take me with you

The love that I gave was used against me
Honesty seemed a foreign and old-fashioned word
Maybe I just don't understand
'cause I'm a stranger in this land
Even friends failed to make me feel at home

Now I know
There was a reason for it all...

Jestes moja nagroda
You are my reward

kandols

i miss blogging. i miss writing about things that really compel me to write. not that nothing important ever happens but i guess the anxiety in me kills the focus. lots to do with so little time.

funny, my cousin sent me a message this morning saying, "when you can think of yesterday without regret and of tomorrow without fear, then you are on the sure road to happiness and success. wish you the best." what's that supposed to mean?! yeah, i know. i'm supposed to take it as a challenge. f*ck. i've had enough of challenges already. it's because of my love for challenges that i'm still stuck in engineering.

spent the holidays with family. got to take a couple of days of rest barely enough for all the things i'm supposed to be up for.

god help me!

cancelled my plan to buy from dad his laptop. i figured i better save the money for myself instead. want to start the business real bad. if i had my way, i'd grab the chance to study another course altogether. but then again, no regrets, right?

boyfriend's doing very well at the office. i know he'll impress more people there :) so proud of him.

took some pictures with my phone. i hope i get adobe photoshop installed on the laptop soon. been meaning to edit and layout a number of pictures and projects.