inspired

last night i helped out my cousin who's a member of the autism society of the philippines. they held a film showing at the up film institute in diliman. i was overwhelmed by the number of people who came to support. it was hell at the front of house where i busily accommodated people who wanted to become members and those who renewed their membership. i got the chance to take a peek inside the auditorium. watching parents' stories about their experiences with their children who have autism made my eyes swell. buti i was able to get hold of myself. man, it was very touching and inspiring!!! i'd like to quote (well, semi-quote because this isn't exactly what he said) gabby atienza, a high functioning pwa (person with autism):

"... I have had my share of sorrows, and I have had my share of recoveries. I have experienced despair, but not to the point that I'd commit suicide. Although I am not romantically inclined, I am happy. (and then he said so many other funny AND true things) I'd rather live this imperfect life than have an idealized one..."

i'm tired

like i always say, i'm just dying to get myself a degree. i just want to graduate! i don't care if i don't pass with flying colors. i just want to have a degree under my belt. okay, okay. i might try taking the board exams once. but if it really isn't for me, it's totally fine. i have tons of rakets and jobs waiting out there for me. when i worked last year, i never missed school. maybe because i really don't like the shit i'm into. kasalanan ko nga. but i'd like to adhere to the belief that i should have no regrets.

bakit ang sarili ko mismo ang humahadlang sa ikauunlad ko? i need to save me from myself. i am my own enemy. my worst.

i need divine intervention.

earthquake anniversary

mom was cooking and i just finished washing the dishes when dad texted everyone:

"kung kumpleto tayo last sunday, mas masaya kasi anniversary ng baguio earthquake [1990] and safe kayong lahat"

my reply:

"Yes. Thanks for reminding us. I remember mom running towards you and crying when she saw you with uncle dading and auntie rhoa."

we lived atop baguio's highest peak during the time. we had to relocate due to dad's reassignment in the company. mom and the four of us kids just got back to the apartment from school. she was in the kitchen and we were playing inside the room while changing from our school uniforms. and then mom called us one by one repeatedly. we didn't understand why she was like that and why all she said over and over again was to get into our shoes and go outside quick.

and the rest happened so fast.

http://www.geocities.com/lingayenbay/earthquake.html

doc and i could've sworn we saw the world turn upside down.

and so tonight i asked mom how she got hold of dad when the earthquake trembled everyone. she said she didn't. i can only imagine what she had felt. there must have been lots to cope up with. buti hindi siya naloka. and then one day, ayun na nga. dad, with an uncle and an aunt, came for us. it's one of the vividest images of my parents loving each other.

i know mother's day and father's day have gone by. but just the same, thanks mom. thanks dad.

oprah rules!

isn't it amazing that god sends his angels to save man from his folly? today, oprah features an episode where a mom lost her entire family. apparently, 16 different people who were about to take their own lives got to watch that episode and did otherwise. that mom was their angel.

implication: a significant number of people watch oprah before they die. haha!

OPRAH ROCKS!

13 is a lucky number for me

Can you name 13 people you can think of right offthe top of your head? Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people. No cheating!

1. jun

2. golda

3. marcie

4. lanie

5. tres

6. rick

7. jay

8. prizza

9. enteng

10. corrie

11. mom

12. mon

13. gerber

How did you meet 10?

thru doc tak. my soon-to-be sister-in-law!

What would you do if you had never met 1?

continue searching

What would you do if 6 and 2 dated?

laugh and hope

Have you ever seen 4 cry?

nope. i have not. and i don't think i ever will.

Do you think 1 is cute?

oh you bet

Tell me something about number 11

my hero.

How do you know 8?

highschool mate and org's past president. a good friend! a person sorely missed.

Would you ever go on a date with number 12?

never. that's incest. and he's icky.

What's 7's favorite color?

i do not know.

What would you do if 6 confessed they liked you?

i'd be terribly flattered.

Fact about 9:

sooo cute and funny

Who is 4 going out with?

with bumbay.

who is number 5 to you?

a friend i love so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Would you ever live with 13?

why not? we'll have fun. tons of it.

Is 2 single?

nope. she's been committed for the longest time.

Where does 7 live?

in angeles city and quezon city

What do you think about 3?

i think she's heaven-sent. a MIRACLE

What's the best thing about number 8?

very... very--bahala ka na :) very beautiful!