sarap.

a great performance never really ends. it lives on in the hearts and in the minds of the people who were there. and when you give a legendary performance, you also take a place in history.

may life give you as much happiness as you brought to all of us.

i didn't know i could twist and turn like that

spent almost the whole day at the gym with choirmates Edmund and Louise. free workout at FF Platinum in TriNoma. went to a yoga class and i did great! :) i just impressed myself. hahaha! buti may mat dito sa bahay. now i have to find yoga DVDs so i can practice by myself.

got this from a bonnet babe:

Denise Cariño: “Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination.
rac: ok. brb.
Denise Cariño: Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” - Neil Gaiman

GRRR! love hurts! *WAVES FIST IN THE AIR*

ang pogi ko

ang pogi ko sa new SSS ID ko. ngayon lang ipinadala after 48 freakin' years! oh well.
wala pa scanned file eh. hehehe. basta pogi ako.
'yun lang.

walang pakialaman. i loves it.

i heyt chu.

sexy celebs' audition for marimar

Camille Prats?! Honestly...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RLJGqJhIjVs&feature=channel_page

posted just now. multiply fucked up yesterday.

kumusta naman!
napanaginipan ko si diego garcia!
he was part of a family of vampires into jacking off and having sex with fellow family members of the same sex.

haha. went home 4am kasi with dear engineering classmates from malate. yesterday was a big day for LGB&T. PRIDE MARCH!

cess and denise got a taste of the fab life. hahaha.

--still can't get over the fact that i have been inked. loves it. ;)

TAKTE KA!

u know what's ironic?

i find my resolve and there you are again. u pop out of nowhere and i lose my footing once more.
i'm supposed to be done with the ups and downs of this ride already.
u make things hard.
very.

sod off.

Ong-isms

"Bakit ka magpaparamdam sa taong hindi marunong makaramdam? Wag kang magpakatanga, sa taong hindi marunong magpahalaga. Matuto kang sumuko at mang-iwan, kung lagi ka namang sinasaktan.

"Imbis na magtanong ka ng "Hindi pa ba sapat?" bakit hindi mo na lang kalimutan ang lahat? Kung alam mong binabalewala ka na, tanggapin mong nagsasawa na sya.
Wag kang magpadala sa salitang "sorry" at "ayokong mawala ka"

----Bob Ong

Click! Click!

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/take-quiz.php?id=0811260135556409&a=1&

Do well. Otherwise, Friendship's Over na ito!!!!!!!!

pakshet

gusto ko na pabayaan ang sarili ko. alam kong hindi tama. but i just need somebody to pull me through this time. i got burnt, numbed. and yet the gravity of the pain sears through the numbness and now i hurt. really bad.

friends who know me i'm not like this at all. i am very willed and strong. but only a few truly know how strong i am. man, you have no idea. this is just a phase, i know. but i sure wish this won't last any longer.

well, anyway, i could very much easily go back to posting on my old, previous, somehow-still-private blogsite so i would not have the fear of having other people read through my truest, sincerest sentiments.

what the heck.

---and now i realize people might think i just went through another heartache. LOL. no, this is nothing about that.

this is boring stuff. i repeat. boring stuff.

Instructions: Think back to your first semester in college. Let's see how much you remember and how much you regret.

What section were you?

1-13.

Who were your seatmates?

Grace Ventanilla, Marie Reyes, Dan Bagasin, Joseph Ryan Tutay.

Still remember your English teacher?

Sir Roa. Lech.

What was your first class?

English Communication Skills? Not sure. Maybe Math.

Best friends?
Wouldn't say Best Friends right away, but it's gonna be Dan, Marie and Grace.

How was your class schedule?

The worst ever!

Made any enemies?
Happy I didn't.

Who was your favorite teacher/s?

Wala!!!!

Sport?

PE - Softball under the ever-loving Sir Salamat. LOL!

Back then, do you always buy your lunch?

Yes, I did...after a week of bringing baon. :)

Were you a party animal?

Nope.

Were you well known in your school?

Are you kidding me? Hahaha!

Did you get suspended/expelled?

Nope.

Can you sing the alma mater?

Of course!

What was your favorite subject?

Dapat English. But I was let down by the teacher. Hehe. Sorry :)

What was your school's full name?

University of Santo Tomas

Where did you go most often during breaks?

Sa tabi-tabi.

What color of pen do you always use?
Black.

Recited often?

Err...In English, I think

Ever cheated?
Not during first year :) LOL

Do you bring your own paper and pen?

Yeah.

Are you in the top ten of your class/es?

Hmm... Can't really tell. :)

Favorite things to do in class?

Daydream.

Classmates you didn't like?

ooh...tricky...

Subjects with highest grade?

PE?

Lowest?
Chem, methinks.

Ever had a crush? Who?

Wala. Never saw my school as a Haven for cuteness.

What's your theme song for him/her?

---

Which of your classes was he/she in?

---

Fave events in 1st sem?

Wala :(

What are your favorite classrooms?

Bulok sila eh. Hihihi.

Do you sleep in class?

Couldn't afford to.

Ever thought of burning your school?

Hell, yeah! Bombing it cuts it more.

Ever messed with a prof?

Nope.

What do you miss most in your 1st sem?

Wala naman meshedow.

If you could go back in time and do it all over, would you?

I would've done better in Math and all my subjects. My life could've been more well-balanced.

Favorite PE?

Swimming!

Where do you spot the hot girls in your school?

read up!

Ever gone on a field trip?
Yeah. Pero not until the fifth year.

Org?

UST Mediartrix

Dorm, boarding house or your home?

Home.

If you had your way, what was your dream course/major?

uh...

First ever person you knew?

Eh?

First play you ever watched?

The 12th Night at the FEU auditorium.

Ever been recruited by a frat or sorority?

Nope.

Is it fun in your school?

Of course!

Ever gone rallying?

Haha. Yes! :)

Did you ever dream of having latin honors for your first sem?

Oo nemen.

If you weren't studying in your present school now, where would you go?

UPd or Ateneo

What do you remember most about 1st sem?

My classmates :)

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i know, i know. makapal ang buhok nito. pasensiya, wala silang manipis na buhok doon sa selection eh. and walang receding hairline :) haha. natakpan pala 'yung left earring ko. the tattoo will have to wait. but it's gonna be soon. :)

and yes. may cleft chin ako.

making it right.

just do it.

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glad to be back!

unsa man mga dong? i'm back from the mountains of danao, cebu. glad to be back, but still, there are demons to face which is, on one hand, good. just proves i'm still here and fighting. there are so many things i realized when i was away. one of them was the cruelty of having to work ridiculously hard (not that i worked THAT hard) and also being away from family and friends you dearly love. but anyway, i wouldn't mind going back there, actually. the project's just really one of a kind and delicate. they say the harder it is to achieve something, the more its worth is. besides, the experience and the opportunity to save some money for myself and my family are two good reasons, too.

now making small, simple but noteworthy changes in my life. happy-happy!

in other news, three of us in my core group are going through some rough times but i know we'll all pull through. cess, hurry back! :)

just finished season 1 of ugly betty

I'm hooked! Ganda.

Everbody's got an Ugly Betty in us, fighting our own battles to achieve our aspirations and more. We may not admit it, but somehow, we still think at a certain level of what the others might think and feel about us, about the things we do, and us being afraid of rejection, of disappointing other people. Never mind ourselves, we can always try to live with our own.

from Ugly Betty's Hilda:
"you don't want them to see how hurt you are because you're afraid you're gonna lose them."

ano ba talaga, kuya?!

Friendster Horoscope for today:

Pisces

Be careful not to assume that big changes equal big improvements! Reassess things.

Uh, okay. So push-pull itong nangyayari sa akin. What a roller coaster experience this is. Anyway, one can only hope, pray and wait for the best.

College Days

1.ANO ANG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
2000-00... omg. i forgot! i wouldn't post that here, anyway. :)

2. ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
Industrial Engineering

3. SECOND CHOICE
Nursing

4. ANO COURSE KINUHA MO?
Civil Engineering

5. NAGSHIFT KB?
Nope.

6. CHINITO/CHINITA KA BA?
Chinito, yes.

7. NAKAPAG-DORM KA BA?
Nope.

8. NAKA-UNO KA BA?
Oo. :D

9. NAGKA-3?
Heller. Poems are made by fools like me but only me can make a 3.

10. LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
Of course.

12. ILANG UNITS NA ANG NAIPASA MO?
Lahat.

13. NANGARAP KA BA NA MAG-CUM LAUDE?
Good question. Now that I've thought about it, maybe once, yes.

14. BAKIT?
Heller?!

15. FAVE PROF:
Engr. Javier.

16. WORST PROF:
Let's not go there. You don't want to know. :)

17. FAVE SUBJECT/S:
Recess (Yuck! So 80's ang sagot). Anye-nye!

18. WORST SUBJECT:
Mga subjects na tinuturo ni *toot* (One always has the freedom to assume)

19. FAVE BUILDING:
Roque Ruaño Building.

20. PABORITONG KAINAN
Dun kay Val's!

21 . MAGKANO BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
13 Pesoses.

22. LAGI KA BA SA LIBRARY?
Not really. Only for research and internet. And tambay sa music section.

23. NAGPUNTA KA BA SA GUIDANCE?
Yeah. To make tambay and do Kokology sessions with the Bonnet Babes. But I never got called for the group activities. Buset!

24. MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
Actually, wala. I never saw my school as a haven for that.

25.ANU ANO MGA NGING P.E MO?
Softball, Gymnastics, Volleyball, Swimming (na hinabol ko talaga. I never cared kahit ako lang ang engineering guy dun)

26. KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
My batch is the best.

27. MEMORIZE MO BA ANG ALMA MATER SONG
Of course.

28. MEMBER KA BA NG VARSITY TEAM?
Back in highschool, almost.

29. NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
Oh, hell, YEAH!

30. ANU MGA KALOKOHAN MO NUNG COLLEGE?
I'll have the Bonnet Babes answer that. :D

happy that you don't have to tell me it's really over :)

***one always has the freedom to assume. but lemme tell you now that whatever it is you're thinking, it's not this. :)

the more i talk about it, the more pointless it gets. everything stops here. now.
so this is officially the last time i'm going to write vaguely about it.

***i miss luzon!

man up!

i know i'm supposed to "man up" (and i have, mind you) but i just can't take it anymore. i just hit SEND on my email to my boss, asking for a re-assignment back to manila. paksheeeeeeeet!

sorry for the late post

hi.

okay, so here's my story.

got pulled out from our project in makati and was flown here in danao, cebu last wednesday night. set-up our now very complete site office with construction manager josef (lolo). today we have started working 7/24 (yes, it's REALLY 7/24), and for now i am on the nightshift. from our resort (www.elsalvadorresort.com) in danao, we travel about 10 minutes to get to the foot of the mountain, 35 minutes to get into the middle of nowhere, and a 15-minute hike up the first borehole.

this tough and delicate project is the first of its kind in the whole company and also in our offices worldwide (www.bauer.de). every day we are faced with major and minor troubles, try to come up with possible solutions, LEARN, and hope for the best. everything can be so frustrating, but my only consolation is that, after this project (whether it goes well or not), i will be one of the privileged few engineers to have handled this kind of work. nobody really knows how to work this and by that, i am afraid to NOT deliver. surprisingly, i'm glad to have talked to stefan (one of our german PM's) last night when we went out (hurrah! i saw lights and the city!) for dinner and ottinger (wheat beer, see photos). he made me feel a bit secure. true. i shouldn't worry too much. :) oh, we saw christopher de leon. the waitresses ogled over him. too bad christopher de leon didn't see rac roldan ;)

for now, i'm saying homesickness sucks. it kills. the working conditions are relatively good. it's just that when i miss people, that gets me really down. but i'll get used to it. i think i already am. bit by bit :) can't really do much aside from work and sleep (4 hours is heaven!). hopefully in the future i could tour cebu. but for now it's impossible. the resort is very nice but i don't have the luxury of time to explore and maximize it's amenities. thank god for sun cellular and internet. these are the 2 things that keep me sane here.

let the pictures (which i will be uploading from time to time) do the talking. the photos might appear that everything is nice and easy and fun but it's otherwise. oh well. fun is okay. i'm learning to lurve it, though. that's what matters.

anyhoo, please take note of my personal mobile numbers:
0906-3402326 (globe)
09227834526 (sun)
09082368391 (smart)

only smart has signal up the mountains. good enough for texting.

ciao!

danao, danao

and so here i am at naia 3's lounge.

just downed gonuts donuts' doubly-priced sweets and beverages while waiting for boarding time. i'm riding cebu pacific to mactan. will get picked up by my construction manager on site, josef.

didn't quite finish trevi with JPC. we had good times there. everybody worked really well on the project and hence, deserves a beneficial bonus.

will be staying at ---

oops! there goes my boarding call.

LSS: IF I BELIEVE (by patti austin, JPC, babe chaps)

***
voila! i'm here na sa El Salvador Resort. very anxious about my role here. pero okay lang. try everything once. give this a chance. i miss everybody already. pero kelangan kumayod. :) besides, para rin sa akin ito.

lots to say, too tired to even attempt it.

Currently listening to:
the resort's MYMP playlist. shetness. bakit ganito ang epekto ng mga kanta sa akin these days? :(

nasa bundok

ako po ay papunta na sa danao, cebu. sa isang bundok. you'll be hearing from me.

efflux

***Disclaimer: This is one emo shit, not really for anybody nor anything in particular. Thank you.

one just simply drifts away.
a dam of emotions and a whole lot of words are sometimes better left unknown.
you just have to find your footing once more and you make the most out of what you have.
you gave it your all and that's what matters.

i gave it my all, i'm done and my future is what matters.

happiness truly is a choice.

ay... okey.

never thought it would be like this with you.
but maybe it's better this way.
para mabilis lang ang lahat.
ayos na rin.

awit goes mental photo

was just browsing through my friendster pictures and i found this one. really made me laugh just now. sa ngayon pala, ako ay more than 24 hours na sa aking shift dito sa isang site somewhere in posh meketi. heyniweys, it's fun here. sarap :)

mabuhay ka, edmund (guy in red sando)!

new beginnings: july 11th

july 11, 1998 -- joined awit panalangin choir (10 years na ako!!!)
july 11, 2005 -- joined sykes asia, inc.
july 11, 2008 -- joined bauer foundations philippines, inc.

from Dead Poets Society

i went to the woods because i wanted to live deliberately. i wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life! to put to rout all that was not life. and not, when i came to die, discover that i had not lived...

--H.D.T.

bliss

to hear someone say you're much more than enough would be heaven.

never.

never underestimate the power of your heart. never.

Let me love you. Over and over again.

I love you. And you don't have to love me back. At least not in the same way. Or in the same time. It's just a fact.

emo crap #2

don't you ever feel like you try and you try and you try and you never ever get there? it's like waking up every morning and failing every time.

emo crap #1

one should never stop loving fiercely. not even for a second. for if one does, you'll never know what'll happen. for all you know, the joke's on you and you'll never guess what hit you. and you'll spend the rest of your life regretting having done so.

The Beatles Forever

I am rediscovering the genius of The Beatles once more.

Thanks to my kuya, The Beatles became one of my earliest influences in music. Throw any Beatles song at me and I would be more than willing to sing it.

Lost all of my phone contacts. Gimme your numbers! :) Thanks.

Lost all of my phone contacts. Gimme your numbers! :) Thanks.

excuse me, that's Engr. Roldan to you. :)

sa wakas, after 7 long, grueling years, i am now a licensed civil engineer. maraming salamat po sa lahat ng mga dasal at suporta. magpapaburger ako! hahaha! i never expected this to happen. the test was so hard and i was more prepared last november. for once, parang gumaling akong manghula.

my best mates val, denise and cess (idagdag na rin si engr. idol pat villavicencio who gave me 2 1-peso coins to put in my soles during the boards) can attest to my awful study habits and the lack thereof. but frankly, i couldn't have done it without them, my dear best mates. one is truly blessed to have friends like them. thank you.

to my folks who never grew tired of me asking for daily baons, pamasahe and other stuff, mahal ko po kayo. sacrifice means you two.

to my siblings and their better halves, salamat!

sa awit panalangin choir na kasama ko ng sampung taon (one decade na ako!) magpuri sa panginoon, videoke na! i have to tell you, when i'm singing with you during rehearsals and sunday masses, wala akong ibang iniisip kung hindi ang kumanta at magserve. singing is twice praying! totoo ito!

sa mga minahal at minamahal ko sa buhay (wushuuu! 'wag na kayo magtanong. hindi ko kayo sasagutin. hmp! akala niyo!), salamat sa lahat ng inspirasyon. kilala niyo kung sino kayo :)

to our beloved professors in college who taught us lessons in and out of the classroom, to our mentors in RI and also in Padilla Review Center, maraming salamat din po.

sa mga naunang board passers, salamat sa lahat ng encouragement. there truly is light at the end of the tunnel. :)

at siyempre sa iba ko pang mga circles like UST Mediartrix, Club Metrica, UST Arki friends, Damian2K, Grand Boulevard Hotel Room #1645 mates (Abba, Eli, Marco), etc., salamas!

to the rest of my family and friends who never failed to let me know they are behind me a hundred per cent, salamat!

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sagaran na ito!

everybody's invited! samahan niyo ako at ang mga kaibigan kong magwala! tapos na ang boards at wala nang pakialamanan! sagarin ang summer para pagdating ng june, trabaho na!

ano ba pwede gawin para magwala? txt me!!! lemme know!

come everyall!

what a boost!

just got home from an interview with a german engineering firm. never thought i'd be excited to work in a geotech field. no tests, just one interview. the boss seemed very well pleased with me. sabi niya i should touch base with his secretary once i'm done with the boards. let this be for me. please. sana pumasa sa boards, sana mapunta sa ****. (hehe. wouldn't want to jinx it.)

hay. what a morale boost. all in god's time.

what a boost!

just got home from an interview with a german engineering firm. never thought i'd be excited to work in a geotech field. no tests, just one interview. the boss seemed very well pleased with me. sabi niya i should touch base with his secretary once i'm done with the boards. let this be for me. please. sana pumasa sa boards, sana mapunta sa ****. (hehe. wouldn't want to jinx it.)

all in god's time.

"-Ology" from Aidz, Ram

TECHNOLOGY

Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?


Q. How many televisions you have in your house?
* 1

BIOLOGY

Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
* right-handed

Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
* i've never had anything removed from my body so far, except for the stubborn wart on my finger

Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
* my laptop

Q. Have you ever been knocked out?
* no

BULLSHITOLOGY

Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
* no

Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
* jason patrick robles (my old pen name. sosi much?)

Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
* black?

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item?
* ahaha. pun intended?

DAREOLOGY

Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
* are you effin kiddin' me?!

Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
* NO!

Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000
* why not?!

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
* hindi naman kailangan bumenta ang magazine, hindi ba? go!

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
* no.

Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
* no.

DUMBOLOGY

Q: What is in your left pocket?
* i'm wearing my boxers.

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
* not for me it isn't.

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
* carpet.

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
* i stand

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you
own?
* just one pair


LASTOLOGY


Q: Last person who called u?
* wushuuu! fishing!

Q: Person you hugged?
* memory gap ba ito?


FAVORITOLOGY

Q: Number?
* 8

Q: Season?
* christmas?

Q: Color?
* blue

CURRENTOLOGY

Q: Missing someone?
* yes. very much.

Q: Mood?
* inis sa sarili. loathing myself.

Q: Listening to?
* amy winehouse!

Q: Watching?
* just finished the forbidden kingdom. ganda!

Q: Worrying about?
* may 8-9

Q: Wearing?
* black shirt, boxers

RANDOMOLOGY

Q: First place you went this morning?
* shower

Q: What can you not wait to do?
* go to neverland and live the life i've always wanted.

Q: Do you smile often?
* yes

Q: Are you a friendly person?
* yes.

If we could just play it by ear...

i saw yet another job posting today in friendster. WILLING TO WORK IMMEDIATELY IN _________. sana. sana...

sana magkatrabaho na ako.
sana ma-renew ko na passport ko.
sana mamatay na mga effin stupid people sa PRC.
sana maka-move out na ako.
sana talaga mamatay na sila as i say (a-la babalu), "buset!"

every day i hear mass. and every day, naiinis pa rin ako sa nangyari. okay na sana 'yung last november eh. we all had the drive to make it good sa board exam. marami kaming magkakasama. iisa ang focus. now it's just different. way different.

every single day i find reasons to not study. every single day i find myself not studying when in fact i ought to be.

if it weren't for the reality that PRC robbed us of our lives, eh di sana wala ng sana-sana.

If we could just play it by ear...

i saw yet another job posting today in friendster. WILLING TO WORK IMMEDIATELY IN _________. sana. sana...

sana ma-renew ko na passport ko.
sana mamatay na mga effin stupid people sa PRC.

every day i hear mass. and every day, naiinis pa rin ako sa nangyari. okay na sana 'yung last november eh. we all had the drive to make it good sa board exam. marami kaming magkakasama. iisa ang focus. now it's just different. way different.

the fact that PRC robbed us of our lives.

If we could just play it by ear...

i saw yet another job posting today in friendster. WILLING TO WORK IMMEDIATELY IN _________. sana. sana...

sana ma-renew ko na passport ko.
sana mamatay na mga effin stupid people sa PRC.

every day i hear mass. and every day, naiinis pa rin ako sa nangyari. okay na sana 'yung last november eh. we all had the drive to make it good sa board exam. marami kaming magkakasama. iisa ang focus. now it's just different. way different.

the fact that PRC robbed us of our lives.

the photo doesn't have to do anything with the write up

like i said, the photo doesn't have to do anything with the write up. nakita ko lang with noriko, my niece, sa tv yesterday. super cute si pocoyo! at favorite ko si pato! so cute!

i have been attending morning masses every day for 2 or 3 weeks now and i must say, the discipline to keep at it is great. every day, god gives us reasons (and the grace to recognize the need) to redeem ourselves, and god also gives us opportunities to do so.

sa ngayon, hindi ko masasabing walang paltos ang pagpunta ko sa misa. sa ibang mga pagkakataon, kung hindi ako nakakapunta sa umaga, nagsisimba ako sa gabi. at hindi ko rin maitatanggi na sa ibang misa ay lumilipad ang isip ko, nababaling sa mga problema't plano ko sa buhay. at sa tuwing may choir, 25% ng attention ko ay nasa pakikinig sa choir: "ay, hindi nila ginagawa 'yung triplet," "ang pangit ng phrasing," "okay 'yun ah. i-blog ko nga later."

but above all, minsan nagugulat ako sa mga taong pumapasok sa isip ko para ipagdasal: mga minamahal, kaaway, pamilya, kaibigan, kaibigan ng kaibigan, kaibigan ng kaibigan ng kaibigan, pulitiko, at kung sinu-sino pa.

kanina, naisip ko habang naglalakad pauwi, kung itetext ko ang mga ipinagdadasal ko. pero sa isang banda, "'wag na. basta nandun na mga prayers ko kay lord."

but if you're reading this, isa ka dun sa mga ipinagdasal ko.

AAAAACK!

multiply just notified me that they deleted a song in one of my eclectic playlists. at idedelete na raw ang account ko kapag may nakita pa sila ulit na post ko which violates copyright laws! siyet!

now broadcasting!

sa wakas. gamit-gamit ko na ang aking mahal (beloved) na laptop. sa kasalukuyan, installing softwares i need, organizing files. ang tagal pala kung gusto mo talagang ayusin ang mga bagay-bagay. haha. anyway, it's holy wednesday. at mamaya ay may rehearsal ang awit panalangin with the el shadddai choir. i need to finish music for gerber's cantorship this good friday. microstation class will end soon, will be starting to review na ulit.

presenting, MY ACER ASPIRE!

my acer aspire

wala lang. masaya lang ako :)

making it everything i've ever dreamed of and more. let's go rule the world! ;)

sino may alam ng magandang version nito?

hi. i heard 'LOLLIPOP" yesterday sa jeep when i was in UPd.
sinong artist kaya ang may coolest version nung song na 'yun? so upbeat! ang cool kasi.
help! super okay kung maganda na a capella. upload na lang ako ng mp3 kung anong mahanap ko.
thanks!

The Chordettes Lyrics

LOLLIPOP

Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop.....

Call my baby lollipop
Tell you why
His kiss is sweeter than an apple pie
And when he does his shaky rockin' dance
Man, I haven't got a chance

I call him
Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop.....

Sweeter than candy on a stick
Huckleberry, chimry or lime
If you had a choice
He'd be your pick
But lollipop is mine

Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop.....

Crazy way he thrills me
Tell you why
Just like a lightning from the sky
He loves to kiss me till I can't see straight
GEE, MY LOLLIPOP IS GREAT

I call him
Lollipop lollipop
Oh lolli lolli lolli
Lollipop lollipop.....

from crispin2shakespeare

crispin2shakespeare

*stole this from the girl above.

1. You're gay, right?
a-la jimboy:
ako? bading? hello, tito boy...

2. Have you kissed anyone on your top list?
top list? are you drugs?

4. Do you enjoy drama?
i have drama. but i don't want it. less is better.

5. Are you a flirt?
flirt is my middle name. i hate it. haha.

6. Who was the last person you hugged?
my niece, noriko.

7. What kind of underwear do you wear?
a mix of bikinis and boxers. white, floral, camouflage.

8. Are you short?
a couple of years ago, i checked. 5'7". ewan ko lang ngayon. but i definitely got taller.

9. Do you like someone?
yes.

10. Are you dating somebody?
no, i'm not dating somebody.

11. Do you care if your socks are dirty?
of course! kadiri ang hindi malinis.

12. Do you think you're conceited?
Y-E-S.

13. Do you dress up on Halloween?
no need. hehehe.

14. Are you double-jointed?
haha! super hindi. bagsak ako sa flexibility exam ko sa gym.

15. Where is the weirdest place you've slept?
sa table by the beach.

16. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?
nope. nobody has.

17. Is there any type of rumor going around about you?
haha. good luck. may rumor pa ba?!

18. Do you call anybody by their last name?
yes. zoe.

19. How many guys will read this?
wouldn't know.

20. I do wear make up sometimes.
sorry, such a big disappointment. no.

21. I have cried at a movie theater.
cried doesn't really cut it. how about teary-eyed?

22. I get jealous.
sus. ako pa! oo naman.

23. I think Colin Farrell is sexy.
yeah. damn right, he is.

24. I love to laugh.
yes! i love it! roanne said sa high school year book namin, "ramonito has the loudest laugh in the university (perhaps)."

25. I like metal.
nah.

26. I like rap.
nah.

27. I like country.
pwede na rin. the tones and the sincere lyrics touch me.

28. I like techno.
uh, yeah. surprisingly.

29. I'd be lost without my computer.
yes! i can live alone on an island with a lappie and internet connection.

30. I own a Spice Girls CD.
i don't buy CDs.

31. I own a Britney Spears CD.
ngak! pero ang tatay ko nagkaroon yata?! hahaha!

32. I own a boy band CD.
mamatay na boy bands! hahaha!

33. I get bored watching football.
not my sport.

34. I've been called a spoiled brat.
once? i can't remember. i'm not one!

36. I've been called a bad influence.
ahaha. excuse me.

37. My friends are the best.
da bes!

38. I have a piercing.
yes. i had my left ear pierced when i was in 2nd year high school.

THIS IS IT. TELL THE TRUTH.

1. What color of underwear are you wearing?
ahaha! of all days, you ask me this one today! i went commando today! hahaha!

2. Do you prefer light or dark-haired guys?
dark-haired. 'yung maitim na maitim!

3. Are you currently frustrated with a boy?
hindi po.

4. Do you have a best friend?
yes!

5. Have you ever had your heart broken?
oo naman. lots of times.

6. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
never.

7. Do you like your life?
i have to make do with what i have. no regrets. :) i'm making it every thing i've ever dreamed of. and more.

8. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?
nope.

9. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
i don't think so.

10. Do you have more friends that are girls/boys (straight/gay)?
more hetero than homo.

11. What can you say about gay marriage?
COOL!

12. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
hindi ako nananakit eh. pero ang sarap siguro, 'no?

13. What are your biggest fears?
bukod sa isnakes, ang maiwan sa ere.

14. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
hay. drama question na naman itech. but yes, i have. just keeping it real.

15. Have you ever not been able to get someone off your mind?
oh, hell YES!

16. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?
yes.

17. Do you ever wish you were famous?
i wanted that before. now i just want to live a full life. that is my personal mission.

18. Are you currently missing someone?
haaay! kilala mo ako 'no? who are you?!?! why are you asking me all these questions?! hahaha. paranoia kicking in. haha.

THIS GUY OR THAT GUY

1. Cowboy or Gangster?
cowboy! brokeback-an na ito! pero hindi ko pa napapanood.

2. Preppy or Hunk?
can i skip this question? mahirap mamili.

3. Lollipop or Hipon?
what is lollipop?

4. Sweet or Sexy?
a-la commercial: "pwede bot?"

5. Well-educated or Drop-out?
well educated, no questions asked.

6. Armani or Abercrombie?
again but this time, a declarative sentence: pwede bot.

7. Contacts or Glasses?
mas pogi daw kung walang glasses eh. mas natural ang dating. pero okay din. hay. hirap naman.

kung sino ka man... sana trabaho ka. haha!

odd.

my phone (model C828: i'm sure you don't know that. hehe) beeped and as how i normally check my phone for new messages, i pressed the red reject button to clear out the screen. but as i did so, i saw that it already showed the message, opened and ready to be read. it came from a weird number, a very unusual format. i'm sure it wasn't the phone glitching nor a virus. i kept looking for the message everywhere but it was gone. i deleted it altogether!

hay. sana trabaho 'yun :( at sana mag-email na lang sila. haha.

o ikaw 'yun?

and i'm officially a quarter of a century

today is march 3, 2008.
simpleng araw lang ito na muling dadaan.
pero masaya ako. because everything suddenly has clarity. i just have to continue hoping and keep my focus. onting tiis na lang.

my short-term goals:

• complete MicroStation v8.1 by March 21
  
• start and attend the refresher course for the civil engineering boards by March 29

my medium-term goals:

• get a job and MOVE OUT!
  
• get a pc/laptop so i can practice my autocadd and microstation skills

maraming salami sa mga bumati! :) i'm wearing my birthday suit! haha! kidding!

cheers!

march 3, 2008

to love and be loved, to get hurt and continue loving. ang sarap.

What Ramonito Roldan Means

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.
You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.
People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

Ramonito Roldan

What Ramonito Roldan Means

http://www.blogthingsimages.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/name.gif" height="100" width="100"> You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Neutral

siyet. neutral.


How evil are you?

janice dickinson

never thought i'd say this but...

i heart janice dickinson!!!

let's go rule the world, honey!

SideShow

Song: Who Will Love Me As I Am
Violet:
Like a fish plucked from the ocean
Tossed into a foreign stream
Always knew that I was different
Often fled into a dream
I ignored the raging current
Right against the tide I swam
But I floated with the question
Who will love me as I am?

Daisy:
Like an odd exotic creature
On display inside a zoo
Hearing children asking questions
Makes me ask some questions too
Could we bend the laws of nature?
Could a lion love a lamb?
Who could see beyond this surface?
Who will love me as I am?

Daisy & Violet:
Who will ever call to say I love you?
Send me flowers or a telegram?
Who could proudly stand beside me?
Who will love me as I am?

Daisy:
Like a clown whose tears cause laughter
Trapped inside the center ring

Violet:
Even seeing smiling faces
I am lonely pondering

Daisy & Violet:
Who would want to join this madness?
Who would change my monogram?
Who will be part of my circus?
Who will love me as I am?
Who will ever call to say I love you?
Send me flowers or a telegram?
Who could proudly stand beside me?
Who will love me as I am?

Company:
Who could proudly stand beside me?
Who will love me as I am?

meet and greet no more

hot damn.
hindi ako nakasali sa 100 participants sa meet and greet ni happyslip.
siyet.

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?

You scored as a Education/Counseling

You should strongly consider majoring in Education, such as early childhood education, middle childhood education, secondary education, or related majors (e.g., Vocational Education, Special Education, P.E./Physical Education). It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Psychology is a great minor for education majors. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Education/Counseling 100% Psychology/Sociology 94% English/Journalism/Comm 94% HR/BusinessManagement 88% French/Spanish/OtherLanguage 88% Visual&PerformingArts 88% History/Anthropology/LiberalArts 81% Physics/Engineering/Computer 69% Religion/Theology 69% Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health 63% Biology/Chemistry/Geology 63% PoliticalScience/Philosophy 63% Accounting/Finance/Marketing 56% Mathematics/Statistics 56%

limpid

Just wanted to share this with you. I made this Tuesday, October 11, 2005.

limpid

a sudden gush of clarity
sheds a different light on my life
everything seems so easy

everything seems so light
everything is abruptly beautiful

nothing is forced
and if anything ever is
i do not feel it
apparently
i have been
becharmed

with this courage you have given me
let me walk the walk of fame
and let me walk the walk of shame
i am yours
you are mine

i am yours

and you are mine
afraid i am not
it is because in my heart
i truly know deep in my heart
that you keep me

i love you and you are mine

hanap werk

jan 12, 2008:
wow.
fresh from egay and macy's wedding in batangas.
may sakit at paos.
at hindi halos nakapag-aral.
woke up at 4am. was in manila by 5:30am.
tried boycotting the "retake."
angela and i went ahead, thinking that we're all taking it.
got surprised during lunch by some miscommunication and misunderstanding.
went back for design.
doodled, made smileys on my scratch papers, and shaded letters at random.
it only took me 1 hour to play with design.
haha.
now looking for work.
the bonnet babes have started applying na pala.

Ryan Cayabyab Singers

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Contact Details (January 2008)

Happy New Year, everyone!

You may get in touch with me thru the following mobile numbers:

0906-3402326 (Globe)
0923-4525552 (Sun Cellular)

Cheers!
-Rac

ugh.

i guess what really ticks me off is that i've come to know good and i have to go back to baaad. i've experienced better, if not the best, and i have to make do with the bad that i have. ugh.

denise!

remember what we talked about last night? 'eto naman nabasa ko sa friendster horoscope:

"You're feeling passive today, but don't worry -- you won't become anyone's doormat"

haha. tawa na lang ako. *shoots himself in the head*